Tomorrow is the last day of school. I am celebrating by dying my hair purple. I need a change. In every aspect of my life.
Christian was pissing me off today with his usual talk about how much his ex screwed him over. So I may have said some not so very nice things. I feel bad for not feeling bad for making him feel bad..if that makes sense. It just felt good.
I’ve realized that every time I spend time with him, I have this tiny bit of hope that maybe just maybe he’ll reciprocate the feelings I have been harboring for him. I don’t even know why I like him. I really can’t stand him most of the time. It’s probably just loneliness. I need to remind myself that I can do better, I shouldn’t settle.